The first days of the rest of my life.

Day 77 - 289 Remaining- Thurs 26/01/12 - HAPPY AUSTRALIA DAY M8’s

Today actually one of the best Australia days ever.
Woke up early and waited for Todd to get here, then we helped my grandfather put up the flag. My grandfather is legit, the most patriotic man in the country it is so cute. Then took 138164103 eshayz photos with the flag.

Then my grandfather, mum, Todd and I all went to the local park for the bloody ‘Straya day barbie breaky coz we’re everyday aussie legends. And we got little flags which were cute but i’m going to use the sticks to make little USA ones because i love America and their flag is so pretty and yeah. Ate breakfast then came home.

Watched some tv whilst i had a nap on Todd which was cute. Then drove to our bloody favourite adopted aussie icon, bloody maccas. And then Todd and i went to the shops and had a detour on the way home lol and finally got back.

Then we watched Release The Bats ( and he actually liked it kinda which was cute) then we watched Back and Forth the Foo Fighters doco which i had been wanting to watch for a while now and it actually was remarkably good. Have a whole new found respect for them and the struggle they’ve gone through to get here. wow.

Then we had bloody down right aussie beef burgers like bloody aussie heroes, and then watched family guy and the simpsons until Todd had to go home. Then i went and printed out more resumes to hand out tomorrow.

Now i’m doing this, then reading for the rest of the night because i won’t sleep coz i am too excited for KANYE FREAKING WEST TOMORROW NIGHT OMG I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT I’M GONNA DO! eeeeep!

Day 76 - 290 Remaining- Wed 25/01/12

Today was very very productive! Woke up early and thought to check my uni timetables and see if i needed to change any tutorials, as today was the day you could do it. Then realised there was something wrong with my login so i called the uni and they said that my enrolment when i submitted two weeks ago, didn’t go through and there was a problem along the line! SO then i had a mini attack thinking my offer would have collapsed and i wouldn’t have anything to do for the next year and i had a freak out. But thankfully the offer was still there and we had to go through and enrol ALLLLLLL again! But now i’ve got it worked out and all of the tutorials are locked in and the times and days aren’t actually that bad.

Then my mum is selling out antique lounge and so this little asian lady was coming to pick it up today. So mum was being hectic trying to make her give us cash as that was what we said on the add, and omg it was so funny i swear it was going to turn into a punch on any second. SO. FUNNY. But alas, she gave us cash and took the lounge and now we are rich YAY lol no not really.

Then my aunty gave me two massive tins of coins, which weighed over 5kgs so IMAGINE ALL THE MONEY I HAVE NOW FOR AMERICA!!?!?!??!?!

Then i got Todd to email me my resume, (which is because its saved on his computer yeah i know i’m weird) then i applied for 6 jobs - aren’t i gr8?

Then i booked my driving lessons and am soon to book my P’s test! YAY!

Then read some of my book which had a dramatic twist! DUN DUN DAAAH!

And had dinner whilst watching the Biggest Loser and Modern Family, then called Todd.

Counted out the smaller of the two tins and it has $71.15 in it and THAT WAS THE SMALL ONE omg i am cheering! Then i watched every My Chem video EVER and cried over Fall Out Boy and how the tour video of Sugar We’re Going Down actually legit changed my life and it has been my favourite song AND video since 2006 and this is like 6 years and wow.

Fall Out Boy ARE coming back, i know it and i know it’s soon. This is the year, baby.

Believers never die.
Never means forever.

Day 75 - 291 Remaining- Tues 24/01/12

Today was great!
Woke up lateish by a message from Todd saying he got off work early again. Then he came a llllllll the way out here and picked me up! And we stopped off and bought flowers and cards for his mother because it was her birthday!

Then we went back to his house and he made lunch and we watched Baby Mama because i am Tina Fey and Amy Poehler ’s biggest fan lover omg. And i love that movie. Then we watched some episodes of Modern Family and whatever.

Then i set Todd’s background on his new laptop to a picture JUST of pete weezy’s emo fringe which i happen to be quite fond off and Todd is not. And it was saaaah funny!

Then we all got ready to go out for dinner! And we went to this delightful cafe and it was beautiful! I had an amazing caesar salad and coffee afterwards! Then Todd, being the amazing gentleman he is, drove me all the way back home, in the poring rain. And it was so freaky because we were on this main road and because we didn’t know the area we were driving a little slow, and this truck almost rear ended us and just held down his horn repetitively. Then we decided to pull into this side street and let him pass when he decided to follow us. So we were legit in a car chase trying to lose this maniac in the truck and get him to stop beeping at us and omg my poor little heart, it was racing, whaaaa.

Then Todd got me home and then himself, safely and we texted. Then mum told me that my Aladdin shirt she had gotten me for Christmas had FINALLY ARRIVED!!! and it is an absolute stunner!!!! yay!

Day 74 - 292 Remaining- Mon 23/01/12

Today was boring and lame. Had to catch a bus home from Todd’s because he was at work. So his mum dropped me at the station and it was all good. Then got home, ate and then chilled around for a bit.

Later went and did some errands for the family. Then went to Monika’s and we watched the first couple of episodes from Season 4 Gossip Girl which she hasn’t seen. And we watched the S4 E2 where Chuck and Blair meet at the train station in Paris and she is wearing that Red dress. And every time, even though the reason behind my love and empathy towards Blair and Chuck’s relationship has or really SHOULD have diminished, it still brought tears to my eyes.
“Your world would be a lot easier without me in it.”
“But it wouldn’t be my world without you in it.”
Then after that, Monika and i did some lurking which is nothing atypical to our usual skills. Then i walked home. Had dinner, and then watched the new episode of Season 5 GG and it was so cute and CHUCK AND BLAIR KISSED AND WHAAAAA! <3 Then called Todd and went on here and slept like a bby.

Day 73 - 293 Remaining- Sun 22/01/12

Today was alright!
Woke up semi late, and then went and met todd and got lunch. Then he drove us back to his house and we watched more family movies and played Wii, then got ready to go out for our friend’s Marissa’s 18. We went to the club and played pokies and drunk and then went to the games arcade. It was good except i didn’t really know anyone there.

And we went outside and it started to pour with rain so i ruined my brand new suede boots which made me angry and sad :( And then Todd was sad which made me sadder :( Then we went back to his and stayed up talking until we fell asleep. <3

Day 72 - 294 Remaining- Sat 21/01/12

Today in all seriousness, was one of the best days of my life.

Woke up really early and went and picked up Todd. I was still a grumpy gills but i warmed up when mum bought me hash browns.

Then we road tripped it to Wollongong and it was quite fun! Arrived a bit early so we got maccas! Then we went to the Entertainment Centre and todd and i went in and i wore my ears the WHOLE TIME and i bought a program and it came with free ears for Todd!!! YAY! Then i got a snow cone as it is a tradition of mine with my mum at disney shows since i have been a bby. Then i was left with the Ariel cup to be mesmerised by!

Then the show started and the first part was ALL ALADDIN and i cried in A Whole New World it was just so beautiful and amazing and so great and omg it was so amazing!
Then there was intermission and this little bby next to me kept trying to hold my hand and it was so cute.
Then the second half was almost as AMAZING but not quite because there wasn’t any aladdin.

Then after the show Todd bought me an Ariel Balloon because they didn’t sell Aladdin one’s which i think was racist and crap.

Then we went and got 12317963716731 photos because i was so so so so so so excited! it legit was the bestest thing ever <3

Then we went swimming at the beach and i literally got pumped by 13832737392 waves omg! Then we went and got fooooood and ice creams and drove a lllll the way back home.

SO. MUCH. FUN.

and needless to say, we’re past our nonsense from the night beforehand. I guess time will tell the future.

Day 71 - 295 Remaining- Fri 20/01/12

Today was average. It was the lovely Linda’s 18th so HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
Woke up late, as usual, then went and got stuff ready to go to her party tonight!!!

Left home and went to meet Todd! Then drove to her house for the par-tay! Went and saw the birthday girl and had a few too many drinks and then todd decided to bring up that damned “A-word” again so we just ended up feuding over it ALL NIGHT. Which resulted in me crying the WHOLE way home.

On the brighter side of the night, getting to see Linda and Cathy again was absolutely fantastic and i look forward to many more nights out and max brenner dates with them in the future <3

But yeah, so over the “a-word” i literally don’t have any words left. I know that i have lost my fight to get him to stay and i guess that if we don’t make it then that’s what’s supposed to happen. I love him more than anything or anyone and i cannot stand the thought of having him move 8 hours away and not even see eachother for 2 whole months let alone the 16 other months that come along with it. Deep down in my heart, whilst i know it isn’t the right decision for us, he has to go. I cannot be the one to hold him back from his dream, however bizarre or redundant his dreams may be. It just hurts me that he’d rather be 8 hours away , in a military camp then be here with steady employment, with me. Time will tell what is around the corner for us and i just pray that it is decent. I don’t think i could take another ‘Predictable Megan ending” To another relationship.

I thought that i knew what love was, and that it would rise up and conquer all things. I now know that i am wrong. I don’t know what real love is, not even close to understanding it. Whilst i am tempted to say it exists, i am still on the fence as the whether or not it is still a myth or a threat we use to wage how much we want something. And i guess what it all boils down to is,
that i didn’t wage enough, obviously, because now he’s most likely going to branch out on his own and my dependency is going to suffer.

I don’t know where my head is at, but i wish i could find it’s destination, because it’s a terrible place to be.

Day 70 - 296 Remaining- Thurs 19/01/12

Today was incredibly boring! Woke up late and TOTALLY FINISHED THE ALADDIN GAME I AM SO PROUD! WOOOO! Then just played ps2 all day like i was 10 again. It was gr8!

Then went home to see my grandparents and just watched MTV forever and Channel V had a boy band countdown and it was also gr8!

Then watched THE MIDDLE which is the bestest because Brick is the biggest Q T and i hope that my future son turns out like him because if not he is going up for adoption!

Day 69 - 297 Remaining- Wed 18/01/12

“The Totem Spins Around I Can See It Falling Down.”

Today was early!
Todd and i woke up at 5:45am so he could train it to work. I decided to take a 6:30am train and then a bus home as to not bother his family with having to drive me home. So we left on time and his father gave us a lift to the station. But he was early for his work so we ended up dropping Todd off at the station and then his father dropped me off at my bus and got us coffee on the way which was super super sweet of him.

Then waited for my bus which goes past and stops at a disabled institution so i waited for 35 minutes to catch my bus with a dozen of disabled people asking me for hugs and if i was their “sister” ? And there were also a tonne of bogans waiting around too, as could have been expected.

Then caught the bus FINALLY and listened to Cobra’s newest album for some reason, idk i think it has some sort of summer vibe idk idk. But tbh “”schwick”” or whatever it’s called is totally my jam not even gonna lie. Then listened to old school Midtown and realised that i have to get started on my letter to give to G.A.B.E. Texted Todd for about an hour until he got to work, then arrived home.

Had a pretty solid nap whilst watching parks and rec, and then woke up and had something small for lunch. Fixed a pair of glasses for my grandfather and then tried to fix something for my aunty. Then went to the local shops like a true blue aussie hero haahhaahahhahahaa and now i’m here finally trying to download my own copy of Pioneer and waiting for Todd to finish work so we can call early tonight so he can get a big night’s sleep.

TONIGHT I WILL WIN THE ALADDIN GAME I SWEAR IT!

Day 68 - 298 Remaining- Tues 17/01/12

“Looking Like Wealth, I’m About To Call The Paparazzi On Myself.”

Today was a whirlwind! Went to sleep late and upset, as per usual, then woke up early to go take my grandfather to hospital pre-op for his opperation. All i ever do now is fishtail my hair!

We got to the hospital and had to walk 180325 miles and finally checked in. Then a few hours later we saw an anaesthetist and then she talked about epidurals and blood and medication, and they talked about my grandfather’s previous heart conditions and his stroke. Then all of a sudden my mum turned to me and all the colour had drained out of my face and i was grey turning purple and all i could feel was my stomach knotting up. So i got up and ran out and all i could see was stars and i was dizzy and couldn’t breathe so i pretty much collapsed!

It was scary. Then just went into the cafeteria for the rest of the day and read my book. Then when we realised that God had delivered us a miracle of some sort, meaning that one of the copious pills my grandfather has been taking has now worked and so the need for his opperation has now been averted! HALLELUJAH! I am actually so thankful and so proud of him for overcoming everything that he has. He is the strongest person I know and there is no other man alive that i love more than him. <3

Then drove him to his physio appointment whilst mum and i got maccas. And the situation between us has gotten back to semi normal now which is cool i guess but i doubt it’ll ever be the same.

Then came home after getting slurpee’s and omg my grandfather drinking his was actually the cutEST!

Then drove back over to meet Todd half way after work. He was so tired which made me sad. And then we drove and got The Green Lantern on DVD and got nerds then went back to his and watched that along with a plethora of cute family movies :3

We had another one of “those nights” where we stayed up to around 2 talking about the “A - word”. And when i say that i have never ever been more against something in my life, i truly mean this. He seriously cannot leave. i dont know how or what i could ever do with myself without him for 3 years. A part of me knows that no matter how much we say we’re gonna make it, it’s going to get the better of us. And not that i don’t love him more than life itself, because i do, but I need a boyfriend here. Long distance is not my forte and i know that because to an extent i have tried. And i have put up the fight of my life trying to convince him that it is a stupid decision, but i guess i’ve lost.

All i know is, is that if i do lose him to the dreaded “A-word”, although he says he’s coming back for me, having been told that before will always lead me to think that it’s a lie. I want to believe that we will be alright and we will be married with children by our late twenties. However, i refuse to marry or procreate, for that matter, with someone who won’t be constantly around.

I don’t even know where my head is at right now, but i hope i’ll run out of tears soon because trust me, i have cried enough over this matter to satisfy a drought in a third world country.

I’m not one for polygamy,
So i’m not letting distance play third wheel.

Tonight was a first for everything.