Day 32 - 334 Remaining- Sun 11/12/11 

Today was a pretty alright day. Slept really well, for a change! Woke up late because of a massive thunderstorm!! Turned my phone off for the first time in FOREVER! and of course by doing that I missed Todd messaging me at 5am our time. I was so upset when I woke up knowing that I have my phone on inbox alerts extra loud but when I least expected it, he messages me! I would have woken up without a trouble to talk to him, so I was very upset that I missed an opportunity to talk with him.

Then I sorta wallowed in my sadness for a bit. Then watched a tonne of Full House DVDs then I was casually flicking through my phone around 3pm and suddenly Todd came online and messaged me!!!!!!!!!!! And we messaged for about an hour and it felt just so good. Wow. Got a lot of my chest and I hate knowing that he’s over there worried about me when he should be enjoying himself. He told me he misses me so much it makes him feel sick thinking about it, and I couldn’t even put how much I miss him into words. I love him more than anyone else in this world and it’s hard to believe that I swore all love between man and woman was a lie.

Tonight I made a pact to keep myself overly busy this week so I won’t be as depressed. Tomorrow, on an unrelated note, is D-day and I am literally shaking in my boots just thinking about it. I have to trust that I will be fine no matter what but in saying this, I have definitely learnt my lesson. TENFOLD!